to my youngest "love"

hi, you know that expression "putting someone on a pedestal"? i kept myself from talking with you because i thought you were the prettiest person ever. so unlike everyone else in school, i never got to know you. and for the record, i don't think i was wrong. we had maybe 100 people in our grade, maybe 1000 people we'd see in any given year. i don't think it's that hard to be the prettiest out of that small community. so the basic math: i think you are definitely the top 0.1% i think that sad part is that it's been 20 years since i've had those feelings. it sounds silly, but i don't really remember how you look anymore. i have glimpses of what it felt like back then? i'm writing to you, partially to say sorry for not being a part of your life, partially to apologize for our parents preventing us from talking, and partially for not wanting the best for you. it's different today though. i hope you are well, wherever you may be. there's billions of people on earth, probably a good chance our paths will never cross again. it'd be great to see where we are today, not that i have my hopes up. warmest wishes